Five on Friday on Saturday!

The day sorta got away from me yesterday. IMG_1471.jpg

I made 5 small jars of salsa and 2 bigger ones. These were all our own tomatoes so that was a big plus.

I doubt we’ll get enough tomatoes for all the sauce I need for winter but I will get some. Based on last years supply I probably need about 18 freezer bags of sauce. I may try and can some but freezing is easier.

Then I decided to make up the sourdough leaven for a Tartine bread. I have the one loaf rising in the bread basket form and I’ll cook that in an hour or so.

My oncology appointment went well. I told him about the stress fracture and he did say ‘repetitive’ movement. So maybe it was just walking every day. Who knows?  My foot is still bothering off and on. Kinda weird. He suggested a DEXA scan so I will do that sometime this fall.  I did have one around 14 years ago that was normal. That was about a year before I was diagnosed with myeloma.

Then we headed to Costco and spent a small fortune. B bought a small or I guess it’s called ‘dorm ‘ refrigerator to replace the tiny funky one he had. It was a good deal at $130. Now we could get milk and OJ at Costco as there would room to keep them out in the barn.

Today, I’m making 2 zucchini loaves of bread from a Smitten Kitchen recipe. She said to use 2 loaf pans but it looked like it wasn’t very full but we’ll see how they turn out.  I plan on freezing one sliced so we can pull out a slice when we want one in the fall-winter. If the recipe is a good one, I’ll make a few more, maybe to give as gifts.

Tonight I think I’m going to make burgers/veggie burgers for dinner.

It’s very very hazy here from the Carr fire. Hopefully, it’ll clear out and the fire will get put out.

 

 

Cancer 2005

It was June 15, 2005, that I got the ‘official’ diagnosis over the phone. We knew, really before that, but it had to be official. The bone biopsy was done by a neurologist surgeon since it was on the spine. It was a pretty horrid experience. I didn’t feel anything but was conscious and I could feel the pressure.  Well, anyway, 13 years ago and here I am doing pretty great( apart from the stress fracture in my foot) which is doing better in the boot thing.

Time gives one perspective on most things, and this is no different.  I’m older, wiser, more informed than I was then. As I’ve said before, I didn’t really want to know much except what do we do now. It was later that I started getting all the info I could. Still, even the Myeloma Beacon didn’t come into being till 2009 maybe???  I learned so much from other Myeloma people and their experiences. Sadly, many of them are no longer here with us.

Life moves on no matter what. Death, sickness, political craziness(hopefully)will all change and move on to something else. It’s as it should be. It doesn’t make it easier or the pain any less, just different.

So, I lift a glass of sparkly and toast to me!!

 

Friday things…

Gee, this week has been kinda weird. It rained so much and was really depressing.  Today is sunny but rain is due back this evening. But next week looks glorious with our temperatures back to ‘normal’ which is high 60’s and even low 70’s. Yay!! maybe I can finally get out to the barn or at least the laundry which needs some help.

Our laundry room is attached to the back of our house. The drain water goes out to water plants.  We use an environmentally friendly soap so it’s good. Plus there are only ornamental plants out there. Also, my chest freezer is in the laundry room and some supplies. I also keep our emergency packs there. Some photo albums to take in an emergency are also in a bin.  The whole room needs a deep clean and I’d like to repaint the shelves.

It has to be warm enough to be out there, so maybe next week.

Update on my sister and her chemo for Single Cell Carcinoma is she is doing okay.  Has lost quite a bit of weight and her white blood count tanked. She also shaved her head so that’s always a bit traumatic. Nothing says cancer patient quicker than bald head:(

On another note of drama…. tomorrow we will meet a half sister that my mother gave up for adoption in 1967. Pretty weird stuff. I honestly don’t remember much but I do remember her telling she had a tumor( a lie) but of course, I knew she was pregnant. All I can say is WTF, you couldn’t have used fu#king birth control.??? My mother was a lapsed Catholic and I think she was in denial a lot of the time. Anyway, this half-sister was the result of the union with her then long-time partner.  The adoption papers were sealed for 50 years and then last January they were released and she found us.  Truthfully, I feel it was better left the way it was but then I wasn’t the adopted child.

She and her husband have flown out from New Jersey to meet my brother who in fact is her full brother. I am totally ambivalent about this meeting.  But, we will meet here at our house and then go out for dinner. My older sister has met with a number of times since she’s in Connecticut. Anyway, talk about a drama or a blast from the past.

I’m off to the gym today since yesterday you need a boat to go out. Then a few errands.

I’ve been doing yoga again and trying to be a little more flexible. Back in the day, I did a lot of yoga and could do all the poses. Now not so much. I wouldn’t dare try a headstand or the plough. The book I used in the 1970’s is Richard Hittlemans yoga. 

Friday night pizza!

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Cheese and pepperoni pizza with basil.

 

Five on Friday

  1.  I think I overdid the gym last week and so this week my ankle has been giving me some trouble and then I had a bad cramp in my hamstring so now I’m hobbling from that pull. It seems better today and I know, from experience, this too shall pass. In the meantime, I only walked a mile this morning and very slow at that. Hopefully, it’ll be better for Santa Barbara next week.   I love walking on the beach trail right by the ocean. The weather looks nice but not as warm as I was hoping for.
  2.          Late next week I go for my 6-week labs. There’s always a little anxiety. I think once a cancer patient, going for labs or any tests just brings up past emotions.  I am way better than when I first was diagnosed and would have meltdowns. Now I just think about it some and don’t dwell on it. I’m sure, if I was back in the thick of treatment, it’d be different.
  3. Finished out taxes with Turbo tax and surprisingly we’re getting a small refund. I would have been happy to break even but those Goodwill etc donations do add up.
  4. Finished paying for my son’s full time semester at CSU Sacramento. We put it on a card to get the reward points. I’ll pay it off next month. He’s doing very well and started a new paid internship.  Traveling to Sac State is costing him quite a bit more in gas and food so his money is going there.
  5.  Made a new recipe from one of the cookbooks I bought for a dollar. It is Cooks Illustrated best Skillet recipes. This one was pasta with peas and prosciutto. I had one last pack of prosciutto in the freezer that B got as a sample. You don’t cook the pasta first but do it in the skillet. My son LOVED it and requested it as a rotating dish.

So today I’m going to the gym and just do some upper body weights and then to Tractor Supply store as last week I saw a T-shirt I liked that was inexpensive and made in Viet Nam so hopefully isn’t made in a bad factory.

I don’t need anything from the store so that’s nice.

Dinner is homemade pizza!!

Very bad news :(

My sister is in the hospital recovering from a surgery where they removed part of her lung for lung cancer. They thought it was isolated in a nodule but the pathology just came back and its small cell carcinoma. Not good.

Her family is devastated as is her husband and me as well as my brother.

I’m looking into flights to Connecticut for March maybe April but probably sooner than later.

She has come out to visit me every year since my SCT in 2006. This is terminal for her even with chemo. And she can’t have the chemo till the surgery wounds heal and then it may be too late.

You just don’t know what life is going to throw at you so Live each day fully and lovingly.

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15th of December

Five things I learned from Chemotherapy.

Some things you just wish you didn’t ever have to go thru and Chemotherapy is certainly one of them.

But you don’t have a choice if you’re faced with cancer. Well, you do have a choice not to go thru chemo but more than likely it will end in death. Of course, there’s no guarantee even with chemotherapy but the odds are better.  But generally, with today’s amazing drugs the odds are pretty good.

so,

  1. Your world gets smaller. You really just don’t go out as much. Partly because you feel lousy but also you want to avoid crowds, germs etc. I remember sitting in the car while my husband would go into the store for a few things and I would look around at all the people coming an going and thought, “wow”, “it’s all so ‘normal’ for them.”
  2. You realize that most things aren’t that important. So you ran out of eggs, figure out something else to eat then. Oatmeal? Just an example.
  3. Time slows down and you just drift from appointment to appointment. Time definitely was different. I didn’t keep a schedule as such and it wasn’t till I found FlyLady that I started my routines.
  4. Normal things become a big deal, like taking a shower, or getting out of bed. It wasn’t till a year and a half after my SCT, that I realized, I wanted to be normal again. I am forever grateful to A.L that hired me as a Library helper and equally profoundly saddened that S. S., ended that 8 years later by not stepping up to the plate to library administration.  But life moves on.
  5. Your relationship to food, money, life, shifts and you realize life is just a fleeting moment and You learn to live in the Present. Even after being a meditator for 35 years, living in the moment with cancer taught me more, than all those years combined.  You just had to be in the moment no matter how you felt.

It’s a strange place to be but then life moves on and you get back into the rhythm of it all when you hit that wonderful moment of remission or for some people and actual cure.

Today was a gym day,( yes, I love routine).

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