Solitude

I’m taking this idea from over at the blog ‘a smaller and simpler life’   

written by Sue from Wales. She is a wonderful writer and is truly living what she aspires to be.

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I’ve always been an introvert but in my earlier years just ignored what I needed. I don’t do that anymore. I don’t like crowds, parties, concerts etc. It’s just not what I’m interested in.

I am truly in a place where I like being alone/or with B who’s generally outside doing something so I have time to do what I want. When he was traveling for work I had many days where I was alone all day till either my daughter or son came home later in the evening. I was perfectly happy doing my own thing whatever that may have been.

I am embracing this as I get older and don’t feel the need at all to ‘fit’ in.

Having embraced minimalism and loving the simplicity of things, I don’t need to overextend or keep busy. I do my daily routines and enjoy the day. I may work on a project or plan something that might need to be done.

Now that we’re in ‘treatment’ mode, there’s no traveling about and as a matter of fact, I just canceled our spring trip to New Brighton beach because another round of chemo will start.  That’s okay because I believe you must live the season you’re in and not fight it.  We’ll go traveling again when this is over and it will be delightful.

 

Another busy week.

Again, more appointments and just out every day. Something this introvert doesn’t like a whole lot but right now, I just need to get thru whatever is scheduled.

Today we’re heading into Sacramento for an appt with the nurse coordinator and social worker. This is supposed to be quite a long appt but I will cap it at 2 hours since that’s about my limit on things like this.  If they can’t tell us all the info in that amount of time, I’ll schedule another appt. But initially, this is quite important as we will be giving her the addresses of the brothers for them to contact with the donor test kits. We will at least have that rolling. I think it was mentioned too that  B would be tested as well. I’m not sure how that is different from his normal blood tests but it must be. Maybe it’s more genetically involved.

From there I initially thought we’d stop at Costco ( B can’t go in) but now I’ve decided it’s going to be too much to go in there after this appt. I need to get some things and the dog’s medicine is there too so I have to go.  But I’m thinking Saturday morning, I’ll take my son as one of the things I need is cat litter and last time I lifted it (35lbs) I hurt my back.  So I need someone with me.  I usually go on Sunday morning which is the best time, but the pharmacy isn’t open so that’s not going to work.

Tomorrow I have a dentist appt. I’m thrilled( just joking). We aren’t too thrilled with the dentist right now. It’s all about money for them. Plus he sorta gave up on my Invisalign after he realized he was losing money when seeing me. So although it did help quite a bit, it didn’t completely align my teeth. Humm, I wonder if that is in the contract somewhere???

I didn’t walk this morning so I may go when we get back. At least try and do a mile just to get some exercise. The rain is going to come in on Friday afternoon and then all the way till Tuesday plus very cold temperatures. Nothing like the polar vortex but still a high of 48 is cold for us here.

images That about sums it up, right??

 

 

 

Labs today and other musings

Today is cloudy and it was sprinkling this morning as we walked. At the end of this month, we will only have 2 months left till we hit year 5 of walking every day. I’m thinking going into year 5, I probably won’t be as OC about having to walk as I just need to keep walking.  I need to for a number of reasons. It feels good to get my blood circulating first thing in the morning but more important, I feel like arthritis is starting to impact me. I’m pretty stiff til I get going but even thru out the day I notice I’m stiffer getting up and moving. Not a good thing, and I may go see my PC doctor and ask if that’s what this is.

So today I went and got my blood tests. It’s been 6 weeks, so we’ll see hoe things are.  It’s hard to say in terms of how I feel because I generally feel excellent. My doctor was watching my hematocrit numbers as they were just slightly high. He wanted me to hydrate more but I pointed out that started after I was in cycle 2 of Velcade so???

I had a great introvert day.  I did have to call the insurance as they said I had a balance on my last labs.  But I’ve never had a co-pay on my labs. so 45 minutes later the nice lady did resolve it for me. Other than that it’s just me and the quiet today.  I did my FlyLady zone( the living room) and since there’s not a lot to do there it’s done.

I’m not sure what I’m making for dinner. I have left – over brown rice so maybe that. It’s not exactly what I feel like but then I don’t know what I feel like and that’s always the problem. So I’ll just wing it till it’s closer to dinner time. My daughter doesn’t get home till 7 pm so we’ll see. My husband is in San Diego working so…???