Well, that’s it. 730 days of walking. JKWP . Tomorrow we’ll start year 3.

why stop. It’s important for my muscles to keep going. Maybe I’ll be a little less intense about it but still just keep walking.😃

Four days left. I thought I’d go into the fourth thing I’ve learned.  these are not in any order, just how i think of them.

So, I am a creature of habit. I like routines and am somewhat OCD about them. Not in a bad way, I just like the structure. So in walking everyday, I like and have learned that when i get up I get dressed in my sweats and walking shoes. Then I have a coffee  and then in @ 20 minutes to half an hour Im ready to go to the park. I like this routine, this habit. my day starts in the dark in the winter and right now the sun is up and sunrise is pretty early.

Thru my years, i guess Ive learned i do better with routines. Its how things get done. I wasn’t always, at least I think, like this. Although I’ve always liked structure and routines. When we were deep in zen buddhism, I think it was the twice daily sitting meditations that helped form my day. Now, i don’t do that but the discipline probably is still there.

So, walking everyday has been a learning of this habit of getting up, putting on the shoes and walking.

Well, its off to the library and I’m sure were going to be slow since its Memorial Day weekend. We do have a lot of transit coming though,so lots of shelving. I’m going to have to work the 4 of July holiday which kinda sucks,with no extra pay. since I’m extra help(still after 8 years) , i don’t get any special compensation. Usually I’m ok with it, but for some reason this time it bothers me. i would like to work anther year there but that may change as they figure out the new hiring which won’t include positions like mine. So we ll see.

I did message my doctor and he answered right away that i didn’t need neupogen since my neutrophils are not that low. Also, no changing therapy till we  give this a chance. So i do feel better about it all. I do hope there up enough for me to start this week though.

B is going to Sacramento tomorrow for a march against Monsanto and will sing his song. you can listen to it on you tube under Mrbarcos Monsanto  song.

Oh, I’m updating my Just Keep Walking Project tomorrow, so stay tuned!!!!!!

I’m in Chico with B , who’s on a work trip. Chico is 2 hours from our house. It’s a nice college town with lots going on. We have thought of checking out living here when retirement happens, but now we’re sure we won’t. It’s too busy and no pine trees. But we went a great used bookstore and a few other places. I found “the Greens ” cook book I’ve been looking for especially since my copy had food stuck to the inside and I threw it away. So a score.

We’re going to stop in Costco for a quick run in because last time I saw a MacAir book that has everything you could want to know. So, I think I’ll get that.

I’m disappointed with my labs. My ANC went up to almost 1100, but is still too low to start pomalyst. I’m guessing Pom is not going to work for me and I’m a little freaked out. Revlimid never dropped my ANC like this. He wants to wait another week and retest. My freaking includes, in the meanwhile I’m not on any myeloma drugs. I need to feel secure that I’m doing something. My light chains had gone up a tiny amount so obviously something’s going on. OK, I’m officially freaked out and depressed. I’ve never had something not work before. I mean my counts should have recovered ( I think) by now. My WBC and RBC looked good. Just below the normal line, but that’s not unusual for me.

I did emessage him about a neupogin shot, and my concern that I’m not on any anti myeloma drugs. So I’ll see what he says.

I’m the kinda person that doesn’t deal well when things aren’t going well. I obsess and get depressed. I tend to withdraw till I figure out my game plan. It doesn’t help, that my upper leg is really bothering me. Nothing had shown on my xrays, but that doesn’t mean a lesion isn’t there. I have walked a lot here in Chico, but this leg things been off and on. When I’m on dex, I don’t notice it as DEX is anti inflammatory.

So, I’ll wait another week then I think we are going to have to look at another option, as this was just the first cycle with Pom . And it didn’t bring my numbers down. Quite depressing since I figured it would just do it.

Well, welcome to the world of cancer!

So, I’m trying to learn how to add stock photos. Here’s an example. I’m not sure  how else to do it yet. Plus haven’t figured out auto correct. On my iPad it just come up.

It is fun to use though and very fast.

Today is library day. I think I’ll get 2 bins of transit, but I imagine the bookdrop is going to be big since the main branch is still closed.

Tomorrow I go get my CBC panel and should have my counts on Thursday. Fingers crossed its ok. Also, Im going with B on a work trip for one night. Its fun to get away and just be out of the normal household stuff.

My budgeting is going ok. I have a free YNAB to try on the mac. I have the PC one but it doesn’t work on this. not sure if I’d get a discount as its a different program. I don’t use ynab a lot but I do like to put the numbers in and play with them. I’m a paper and pencil budgeter. Ive tried lots of programs but I use a notebook daily and figure my numbers from there. We’ll need to set a budget for my sons fall semester as he’s going to take 5 classed and not work. Then he’ll be done with his AS degree and can look at universities.

It’s been a nice day. Did my flylady zone and tidied the rest of our small house.

Yesterday was busy with Costco and Trader Joes. But were set for 3-4 weeks except for fresh veggies etc.

I was pretty tired after yesterday but felt ok today. Im anxious whether my neutrophils will go up. I guess since there is

absolutely nothing i can do about it, I shouldn’t be. But anxiety is what it is.

We’re watching a series called Da Vinci’s Demons. Da Vinci is a young man and trying out many of his incredible inventions.It’s interesting from a history perspective with the Medicis (not sure of spelling) and Rome.