I have a dream.
I was raised mostly by my mother(absent alcoholic father) who was very racist. She really hated Puerto Ricans and blacks. Why?? I really have no idea. She was raised in NYC and went to Catholic schools.
I on the other hand at even an early age had a tremendous affinity for black people. When I was in high school, I think it was 11th grade, that summer I volunteered in a town called Newberg that had a program for “underprivileged black youth”. I remember just starting to drive and it was frankly a little scary. That year as well I was chosen as the class representative to meet a civil rights leader with my Social Studies teacher. Honestly, I have no memory of who that was but just remember the ride along.
Anyway, MLK JR. was a huge influence in my life. Later when I meet B and he was a Quaker and conscientious objector I was over the moon. ( and in Love)…
Well, right now we need some help in this country as was witnessed by those absolutely horrible teenagers taunting the Elder Native American. Those kids should be sent to a reservation to live and work for a year and find out what it’s really like to be a native person.
I walked this morning and B actually felt like walking too!!! Hurray!!! As soon as we were done though it started pouring rain. It was funny.
Today is supposed to be rainy but then the rest of the week looks lovely and in the mid-’60s. Yes, I can get outside. I am wanting to get out to the barn to go thru another bin of Life magazines. I think I’m just going to take most of the very early ones to the Cancer thrift. I have some of the ones in the 1930s. I love that life was so different and way simpler but also way more uninformed. News took a long time to get out. Now it’s instant. Anyway, I’m pretty sure my kids don’t want these ones so I think that will eliminate almost a whole bin. I have 4 bins left and I’d like to get it down to 2 by this summer. Other than reorganizing camping stuff the shelves out there look good.
B will need to give most of his samples away since he’s not on the road and won’t be again. The food bank always appreciates the organic and natural stuff. His job has been given to someone else so when he goes back it won’t be for that job. Does anyone know the law about that? Do they have to hold his job for him for x amount of months or not at all? Well, since we don’t know how long it’s going to be I guess it’s a moot point but still I’d like to know.
I’m off to the gym and then finish the bedroom zone. I want to wash the curtains this time around.
Dinner is spaghetti with a sauce I think. Brinner is an option too. So one or the other.
We made it through the storm but boy did the Sierra get a boatload of snow. I think it was over 2 feet and that’s a lot.
There was wind from around 8 pm to midnight and then just like that it turned off. Kinda weird. NO trees down but some branches and I don’t think it was over 25 MPH. There were some gusts but they were tolerable and we could sleep. There have been times in the past when the wind sounded like a freight train coming thru and that’s a big wind.
Today was busy. B had platelets and we had to deal with SDI first off. We got an email saying his benefits application had been denied. So, of course, we freaked out. We called and after a 30-minute wait explained what had happened. The person was helpful and I think we’ll be able to fix it. But the problem is with HR and how to use B’s sick leave and PTO. We really didn’t know what we were doing and actually still don’t but I hope we can figure it out next week. B spoke to HR today and she said you need to use PTO first over sick leave which is the exact opposite of what the SDI guy said so…… Also, she will look for the for EDD sent over 2 weeks ago stating what they will do. I hope by next week we can figure it out.
It’s quite scary since how will we pay stuff. The reason B is still working ( sorta obvious )is that we don’t have a lot of retirement built up. We still have a mortgage and a second.
But I think we will see it thru ok.
Then after his infusion, I took him home and took our 20-year-old van in for a smog and to pay DMV. So I first go to Speedee and their machine is down. Okay, I go to the next one Quick lube and because the car is over 20 years old their smog machine won’t work. So I go down to the next local one and its a-go but I did have to wait with every derelict this side of Sacramento( well it seemed that way). Geez, what can I say 2 of them didn’t have teeth. So finally 45 minutes later I’m on my way to AAA. It was all a PITA but it got done.
Tonight I’m just doing a small homemade pizza. I have dough from the freezer and I’ll just do sauce and cheese on top. B is still not eating but he is getting better and he says the mouth are sores are greatly improving. Yay!!!!
Well, off for now to watch some Vera or Poirot.
This is a rare weather prediction for the Sierras. Where we are in the foothills there is lots of rain BUT THERE WILL BE WINDS. High winds. Since we’re on the eastern side of the Sacramento Valley that is where the high wind warning is.
I’m not sure how I feel about this. In the past, we have booked into the Holiday Inn in Auburn and just left for the night. I’m not sure I want to do that this time unless it dire. The threat being 100-foot Ponderosa pines. But we have in recent years gotten thru without trees falling. And we have removed some. I’d say we still need to take down 6 more trees that are on the South side of the house and then in the back by the barn there is one of the biggest trees we have( probably 4 feet diameter at the bottom) that is leaning toward the barn but not the house. These winds have generally always come from the SSW so that’s where there are about 6 left. Some lean away and one leans towards. Of course, these trees have been around for at least 50 years maybe 100, but still, a gust of 60mph can do some damage. So I’m undecided. My anxiety probably will be the deciding factor. So if by 5 tonight or so if it’s just too much we can go. My daughter doesn’t want to go since her cat Ollie is not well and almost died yesterday. She has taken a floating holiday today. and she’ll probably need tomorrow too.
B has had a few days off from appts. How nice to just relax. Tomorrow he has labs and then if he needs an infusion it would be Friday.
I might go to the gym. I haven’t decided as my back is still bothering me from lifting something too heavy last week. I do have degenerative disc in some areas so it could be that. I’ll wait a week and see how it is. If it’s still bothering me I’ll ask for an x-ray.
I cleaned out the kitchen pantry this week and reorganized. I’m following along with ‘the minimalist kitchen’ by Faux Martha. Her blog is quite beautiful and her sponsor is OXO. So she has a huge following. I like her ideas and she seems very down to earth and not preachy. I really despise preachy. If you’re interested go to her website TheFauxmartha.com or YouTube put in Minimalist Kitchen. minimalist kitchen
Here’s an example of Henning Mankell’s writing:
” How do you survive?’ she asked.
“you get out of the house as fast as you can”.
“That’s not what I meant. How do you survive when you’ve lost everything you own?’
‘We need very little in order to live.’
‘But what about all the memories? The family heirlooms? The photograph albums? The floors you have always walked on, the wallpaper you have seen every day, the doors you have opened and closed?’
‘The most important memories are preserved in my mind. I can’t weep over the fact that everything is gone. I have to decide what to do. I have no intention of allowing the fire to steal my life.’
Honestly, his writing is brilliant. If you substitute fire for anything. Right now, I’d substitute this cancer.
A sunny day at last. Actually, yesterday was nice too. But rain/snow is forecast for the whole week. I guess we’ll get thru. But when the sun is out and it’s almost 60 degrees, I start to want to go out and do yard work, or garden. or get back out to the barn for more decluttering. But then it’s nice for a day and then back to 50 degrees or less and all that enthusiasm leaves. Oh well, it’ll all be there to get to.
Today is day 4 of chemo, so only one more for this round and then it’s a waiting game to see how the labs start doing. I suspect at least a week before anything maybe two. I have read some encouraging stories on the MDS facebook page. That does help. Plus I’ve asked a few questions and people are very helpful. That kind of support is really worth it and from my own experience with the Myeloma page and the Myeloma Beacon, they were literally life-saving and helped me move in the right direction.
Today is a gym day and then home to just do some chores before heading back in to get B. Today is a short day for him so that’s nice.
Dinner is pulled pork with corn tortillas. Scrambled eggs for B. His mouth sores he says are getting a tiny bit better.
This week is the bathroom zone. I was watching YouTube with The minimom who is in New Zealand. She’s quite cute with her zone cleaning but she said she uses some printouts from Etsy. I went and looked and am undecided if I need these. They’re only $4 but I’m not sure how much I’d use them. Basically, I have a planner( blank pages with a dot grid, I get at Michaels) and then each day write my goals and what I need to do. I also do a budget daily checking what’s out and what is due when. 98% of our bills are automatic but a few are still put in. So usually, I also do the next paycheck budget and adjust accordingly such as this next pay period I need to get the van smogged and pay registration. So, then I add that in.
Off to tidy up and then read.
Oh, I’m reading the last Henning Mankel book,’After the fire’. His writing is just amazing. It is so clear and precise. Yet, very poetic.
I got a call from my oncologist’s office that the Dexa scan came back in the normal range. Yay, one less thing to think about. Kinda a relief.
Today we’re off to chemo day 2, and B needs a blood transfusion as his Hemoglobin was down to 7.4. I am so hoping that the chemo kicks in soon and he will need less peripheral support( transfusions). Realistically though it could be 2-3 weeks.
Then I’m coming home to do some tidying and laundry. My son, who gets off at 4: 30, is going to pick up his Dad so I don’t have to go back out. That’ll be nice.
I’m making pizza for dinner and have the dough made and is doing a rise. I thought I’d do a simple marguerite one and then an Italian sausage and mushroom one.
The no spend January sorta fizzled out as I went to Target yesterday. Well, I got cat food but also a candle and a faux eucalyptus branch made by Hearth and Home which is the Magnolia line. I’ve been buying fresh eucalyptus at Trader Joes but haven’t been there in quite a while. So I thought these would do nicely as a substitute. I shall keep focused on the No spend but things may sneak in here and there and I’m keeping track of that. For me just bringing awareness into what I’m spending money on is an eye-opener. But since I don’t go out for coffees a lot or buy clothes, the main thing I spend on is household items. So that’s all good as long as the budget is there.
If you’re a Dracula fan, I just finished ‘Dracul’ which is written by the great grand nephew of Bram Stoker. It was superb!!!
Well, off to town.