Cancer 2005

It was June 15, 2005, that I got the ‘official’ diagnosis over the phone. We knew, really before that, but it had to be official. The bone biopsy was done by a neurologist surgeon since it was on the spine. It was a pretty horrid experience. I didn’t feel anything but was conscious and I could feel the pressure.  Well, anyway, 13 years ago and here I am doing pretty great( apart from the stress fracture in my foot) which is doing better in the boot thing.

Time gives one perspective on most things, and this is no different.  I’m older, wiser, more informed than I was then. As I’ve said before, I didn’t really want to know much except what do we do now. It was later that I started getting all the info I could. Still, even the Myeloma Beacon didn’t come into being till 2009 maybe???  I learned so much from other Myeloma people and their experiences. Sadly, many of them are no longer here with us.

Life moves on no matter what. Death, sickness, political craziness(hopefully)will all change and move on to something else. It’s as it should be. It doesn’t make it easier or the pain any less, just different.

So, I lift a glass of sparkly and toast to me!!

 

Midweek Musings

Still no call from the podiatrist office. I’ve called a dozen times and it’s always an answering machine. WTF???? Today is day 7 of not walking every day. Still, a bummer for me but my foot does feel a smidge better though. Plus today they’re closed, so that leaves tomorrow and then their closed Friday.  I think I’m going to call for a different referral down the hill.  Which for us is toward Sacramento!

My brother flies out tomorrow to Conn. to visit our sister and her family. They are having a huge summer party and he decided to go now. The ‘new sister’ arranged his flight and Heidi paid for his hotel. So he should be set. He doesn’t have computer access so I think that’s why he did that. The sister keeps in close contact with him but not me. I guess I’m too stand offish. Oh well, just as fine.

Last nights dinner was a disaster. I haven’t had one of them in many years.  First, I had been to the Davis co-op and decided to buy skirt steak for tacos. I marinated it yesterday and put on the grill. Then toasted corn tortillas.  It was HORRIBLE and DISGUSTING. It had a weird texture and taste. Gross!!!! So I ran into the house and made some cheese quesadillas up for us. Then B had bought this nut loaf thing at another co-op a while ago and I had frozen that. WHOA, also gross.  So much for adventures in cooking.  I think I’ll stick to what I know how to cook.

Today is supposed to be warm @ 95 so I’ll turn the coolers on after a while.  I’m not going to town but  I will go down to the Holiday Market. ( which is at the bottom of our hill). I’d love to walk but can’t right now with the foot thing going on. I need some fruit and I wanted to get a few veggies. I found the exact spiralizer ( Paderno) at the thrift store yesterday for $4.00 .I was quite jazzed.  So I want to make some zoodles and then stir-fry them. ( Maybe not tonight).

My upcoming project is back to the black hole of the barn….(.scary music playing).   It’s really not that bad just it has stuff all over the floor on my son’s side and ALL of that is coming out to be put on tarps and then dealt with. He has the whole back wall of shelves that B built for him.  The rule was, his stuff had to fit on those shelves. So this summer it’s happening. It was a year ago I said and did the same thing and it just got put back in. 😦

The shelves in the middle of the barn which is our seasonal stuff, actually look good.  I’m down to 4 bins of Life magazines and 2 bins of Christmas, 1 bin of the kids Waldorf books and paintings and main lesson books, 1 bin of their LOTR playing cards, and 1 bin of our ‘history’ stuff.  So, it fits nicely and wouldn’t be that hard to move if we ever did move to condo or whatever.

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This is the south side of the house. You can see the window cooler and these plants are Rose Campion. They are an ‘old’ garden flower. They spread nicely and are a lovely rose pink color. They have spread all down our hill into other peoples yards too!!

 

 

 

Simple Sunday

It’s been an okay couple of days.

Not getting up to walk is definitely weird but I think till I see the podiatrist, smart thing to do.  I got a small foot brace from a friend that holds the foot but it’s not the boot that I’m hoping to get.  I walked around our driveway ring and there was slight pain but it does seem less. Who knows since this is what happened off and on for the last 4months. It would feel better one day and not so good the next. Now I know probably because I kept reinjuring the stress area.

Today, I’m going to the gym to do weights and that’s it. It’s hard not to jump on the treadmill. I don’t have any other chores so just that.

Happy Father’s Day to all you Dads and my husband, who was and is the best Dad ever.(Ha ha, next Sunday is Fathers Day,)

I’m making blueberry pancakes and scrambled eggs.

The bathroom zone is this week so I may do that later. Even though zone work is the whole week, I try and do it on Mondays. Sometimes Sunday.

I finally got the library copy of ‘Meet the Frugalwoods’ and most of the negative feedback was about her not really disclosing the high incomes they both had( him more than her, in the $200,000 range and more).  Also, she does quite often mention their ‘privileged’ life which is honest, just there’s not real transparency about them achieving financial independence not so much from penny-pinching but making huge amounts of money and saving as much as possible.  While it is commendable to be frugal and even extreme frugalness, but the fact remains about the income ratio to that.  It’s ironic and hypocritical on her blog to have reader cases reviewed which DO in Fact require the reader to fully disclose INCOME as well as EXPENSES.  When they do their own monthly accounting all it is their expenses. so while their expenses may be $4,000 a month their income is maybe $25,000. Or whatever 12 months divided by their annual income of over $300,000.

Anyway,  to each their own.

I went to Goodwill yesterday and picked up a few things. An OXO container for .69, a vintage Pyrex casserole dish for $4.00, a vintage milk glass vase that was $3.00 and a few pairs of jeans one being NYDJ which run $100 new. So that was a good score. Also 2 T-shirts but after trying them on at home they didn’t fit right for some reason, so I’ll give those back. Also, a sisal/grass rug for $12 that I put in the front room. It has a nice summery feel and was brand new.

Well, off to start those pancakes!!

 

 

Upset!!!

I am beyond upset actually.

I did go see the PA and had an x-ray of my left foot. It is a F##king stress fracture and I am not to walk on it till I get a boot or something. I can’t even see the podiatrist till next week.  It’s supposed to take 6- 8 weeks to heal.  I’m hoping sooner. The funny thing is it would seem to get better one day and then hurt the next. But that maybe as the PA said, I just wasn’t letting the bone heal.

My foot pain started sometime around the first of the year as I have a few notations in my bullet journal about my ankle bothering me. then it seems it would feel ok. So I’m gathering the stress fracture occurred sometime then but initially, stress fractures cannot hurt and then proceed to hurt more. Which is what happened.

I don’t even know how to process this. Getting up and walking is a huge part of my life.

WEll, I’ll adjust in a few days and hopefully, I can get into this doctor next week.

I’ll be back in a bit once I emotionally and mentally adjust.

June must be my month of bad medical news as it was June 15, 2005 when the call came in that I had multiple myeloma.  Geesh… what a f##king bummer. Well, thankfully this is not cancer of another sort. But life sure throws some curve balls that totally take you by surprise.

Just Keep Walking is still on, just modified for a while.

 

Decorating with houseplants, ​minimalist style.

I didn’t even have a houseplant a few years ago.  Then after watching some You -tubers on minimalism and their flats or apartments decorated with greenery, I was sold.  I added a few here and there and now, well, they’re all over and I love the varying shades of green.  I also saw that a lot of these same people used white or muted pots because the pot blends in with the surroundings and the plants stand out. Wow, this is so cool and totally true.

But finding whitish pots is actually not easy.  Home Depot doesn’t have one except for this white bamboo one, which is the one I’ve bought the most of.

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This spider plant was quite root bound and loves its new pot( it told me so)! I’ll have to see if it likes this spot.

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This Boston fern likes where it is.

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I moved this spider plant a while ago as it wasn’t happy where it was and now it is VERY happy!!

IMG_1407.jpgThis is in my office/dog area. It’s the new plant ladder B built and all the plants love it .

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This is in my office area too near the french doors that go out to the sun room. Sounds fancy, but really it hippy built and loved and a little wonky, but I love French doors( we got these free years and years ago when the newspapers( laugh at that one) listed for free items. This is pre-Craigs list!!!

I am loving having house plants again after years of not and I think they really add to the color in a room plus personality.

When there’s no knick-knacks or other clutter ,plants act as decor for the minimalist. I do have some things around such as 3 vintage clocks that I love, and I have one Roseville piece that is the Zephyr Lily which I’d love to collect as Zephyr is my son’s name. But you don’t see Roseville Pottery around thrift stores much so…

 

Nothing much new here.

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We got back from our mini camping trip and the weather turned hot. We’re working on getting a new window and window cooler for the Studio(where our son sleeps and does school work),as it gets hotter than hell in there. The window just came into Home Depot so I’ll go pick it up this morning.

We bought the cooler the other day so B just needs to pop in the new window and then add the cooler. We have 3 in the house and they do work great and don’t add too much to the electric bill.

Today I’m off to see the PA about my foot problems. I googled it and it could be a stress fracture or some tendonitis. hmmm, not happy about this as it completely affects how fast I can walk and even just walking is a challenge on the first round.

We’ll see what he says. I saw this guy for the physical we needed for health insurance and I like his approach.

Since our doctor retired we don’t have a PCP, so I guess he’ll do.

My sister finished her chemo and her MRI and CT scan looked good. She probably still needs to do the radiation as Small cell carcinoma is very aggressive.  But I’m glad she’s got this time of remission. My brother will be flying back to Canton, Ct next week. I’m still not sure when I’ll go. Maybe the fall?

Other than that, not much new here.

Dinner is taco Tuesday something:)