I’m thankful to be flexible about getting up and going walking. This morning I have to leave at 7:45 to get my velcade shot at 8:30 so I’m skipping walking.

After the shot, I plan to go to the gym, which I’m grateful for as well. It’s a lovely gym, and the library is next door. I have a book on hold, and I’ll check the new books, too.

I’m thankful that B’s oncologist DID call right away yesterday. The news is not great. The tumors are all growing again. The liver was fine, though. Weird. She will consult with Stanford but my guess is Dr. Lee is not going to do the surgery. Here we are, 2 weeks from it, and this shit happens. She also said after seeing his labs that he needs 2 bags of blood. So we’re back in it. He got an appointment for Saturday, so I’ll take him and my daughter will go get him. Some people in the Peritoneal Facebook group did say they have had surgery with the tumors present, and they are then taken out during surgery. I just don’t think that’s Dr. Lee’s approach, but we’ll see. B has a video visit on Friday afternoon, so we’ll know then. The video visit is with Dr. Neal, but he is Lee’s right hand person, so I’m sure he’ll know what the next step is going to be.

Also, I don’t want him back on chemo but to do the immunotherapy. Again, a number of people in the Facebook group said it’s much easier to handle than chemo. I guess we’re sort of back to square one. It’s all pretty fucked up.

I’m thankful that my kids can support their Dad and are there for him.